things have been so hard for me these past few days.
but im still not moved.
i need to remind myself for the umpteenth time that things get worse before they get better.
and i want to (or rather have to) stay strong for my parents, especially my mum.
ive vowed.
its very hard for me to forget what i had done wrong to her in the past.
i want to mend everything that has been loosened and broken.
im terribly sorry, ma.
it was stupid of me to put tears on your face.
trust me, im not gonna do that anymore.
thanks for everything.
hearing your voice heals me.
i love you, ma.

i still believe, there will be this one day where we will have the whole world for ourselves.
im struggling here just for you.
i try my best not to disappoint you. i wont.

as i said before, my family is the only reason why im still standing strong here.
im not gonna care about anything else.
because i know, my family will forever be by my side, even when im despicable.
:)

and thanks to those who are always there to cheer me up.
i love you guys.
there are truckloads of names, i dont think i need to list them down.
theyre here in my heart, cant be erased.
hehehe.

thanks for your time, patience and understanding, love.

now i spend most of my days observing pretty people and wondering how it feels to be pretty.

it feels awful to wake up in the morning just to find yourself at the edge of losing everything and everyone.
it really does.
but life must go on.
im prepared.