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im back yo!
miss me?!
heh~

idk how to start, idk how i should decribe the camp, idk how.
the camp was... great.
it was tough and torturing.

i wasnt burnt by the sun or got any mosquito bites while my friends legs look like singapore flag alr or whatever, i was so proud.
until around four hours ago, i was 30m above the ground, (idk how many meters but i know the tower was 3-storey high so i assume that one storey is 10m high eventhough idk how long 10m is) i was ready to fly and scream at the top of my lungs, i was so nervous that i couldnt even think and wasnt able to know what i was doing and tadaaaaa... both my legs scraped against this metal thingy thing before i was set free.
its more to sliding against that metal than scraping.
idk how to explain it but the next thing i know, i couldnt feel anything but the wound when i was in the air.
:(
my pants were torn and both my legs got blue black (red) all over.

my watch, lepus (sp?) got an awesome instructor, fong fong.
i feel sorry towards her for my group had disappointed her throughout the whole obs.
im sorry i didnt do my best too.
but seriously, obs, through fong fong, has taught me loads of new great things i never knew.
shes one of the people in my "greatest people ive ever met" list.
and i swear im gonna miss obs so much.

the most memorable moment was when fong fong brought my watch and me to the jetty at night to look at the stars.
fong fong and hairil, from our buddy watch, switched off all the lights along the jetty.
i could see singapore and the lights and all the skyscraper buildings from a distance.
the sky and the stars were exceptionally pretty, the wind blew so gently and looking at the water and the scenery actually made me tear, a bit.
i remember fong fong telling us this story about peter who entered two different doors labelled heaven and hell.
i was far in my own imagination.
how i wish i could be with my beloved ones there, sharing the beautiful night with them and how i wanted to tell them how much i love each and everyone of them.
its harder to say i love you to those whom you love the most.

im just gonna share with you guys the magnificent moments i had because im so weary now from having only two to three hours of sleep for the past three nights.
and i seriously need to take my long bath.
shall elaborate about this kind of things next time.
hoho.

there was this time when i just finished washing my utensils and i saw iqin and fatin sitting together at the seashore so i joined them.
and they cried and we hugged each other and talked and the setting was breathtaking that it was so hard to hold my tears back.
its as hard as seeing my friends hurt this much.
especially when i cant do nothing except "be there".
just remember that others have it alot worse than what youre having right now.
trust me.
ive gone through all these things.
the cryings, the pains, the loss and everything.
apparently, those things are the ones that have made me stronger. until now.
:)

and i saw lala crying too.
again, i cant do nothing but just be there and let her cry as much as she wanted.
because i know precisely how it feels and honestly, crying relieves.
haha.

i love you guys from the bottom of my heart.
my scattered and tired heart.
ceh. haha.

i guess i have to stop here or else this entry will be the longest entry youve ever read.
although im not sure if anyone has ever read my blog.
but its fine with me.
i love talking.
i havent been talking alot these past four days ok, i was really quiet.
unbelieveable, i know.

im gonna blog soon about the whole obs camp.

and wheres noora?
and wheres money?
i needa top up my prepaid.
:(