I MISS EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE. DAMMIT.
i miss who i used to be and how i used to feel and what i used to have and everything!
:(

i miss indonesia.
i miss the smell of my house and cars.
i miss waking up in the morning, sitting on the swing outside my house, eating whatever food i can find and breathing in the super duper fresh air.
i miss mama i miss papa i miss epin i miss ayi i miss regina i miss apek i miss my maid i miss my driver i miss my fish pond i miss the smell of my sisters room!
i miss eating loads of food and choco and ice cream and kway teow and mee and batagor and other fattening food with ayi and papa without having to care about how many ponds i would gain after eating them.
i miss playing badminton and looking for the shuttlecock, that will surely be gone at the end of the game, with ayi and regina.
i miss riding bicycle with epin ayi and regina until dawn.
i miss talking to mama and i miss shopping with her!
:(

i miss karaoke-ing (or whatever you call it!) on weekends with amel and iven and tia and carla and riri and rara and teta.
i miss pim i miss jco i miss excelso i miss a&w.
i miss angga i miss eki i miss their company.

i want to go home! CAN?!

i even miss lala and fatin and iqin.
its been ages since four of us sat and talked together, heart to heart.
:(
i miss playing netball with three of them plus fifah and wani and renie and farah and nurin and... everyone.
i miss those times when i could laugh until i teared.
i have completely become a serious and boring person.
:(

i need to refresh my brain!
i want to go back!
please.

all i can do here is feeling anxious 24/7 due to exams and stuffing my pebble-sized brain with algebra and global warming and chemical formulae and periodic table and speed of light and hexagon and whatever shit before it explodes in 168 hours time.
WHAT IS THIS.