hello world.i miss you :(
i like this picture. hehe. its a candid -.-
my ex took it when i was doing my hair in his car. i miss him also. aiyooo, i miss everyone lah.
even those who i see everyday.
haihh..
three more days to go.
i skipped training on monday, my stomach hurt so much and i thank God for it. hahaha.
but theres training tmr and im running out of excuses. haha. okok, im bad. i love training, trust me.
if theres no fitness only :)
i enjoy every moment in my life and i cant seem to get upset by people around me trying so hard to make me down.
i dont give a damn about my friends (or even my bestfriends) gossipping about me.
im already used to all kind of denial and hypocrisy.
gatria is what she wants to be. bear that in mind. cheh.
im fine with people not liking me for who i am, i wont change a thing in my life just to please others.
i just feel ive had enough. this is MY life.
in case you guys havent noticed, i dont care about you guys' lives as i have mine and my problems are mine, i dont wish to share it with my friends.
selfish, i know.
but youve taught me something and ive learnt how to keep all my trust to myself.
i know people who reveal peoples secrets to impress others. and im aware of their presence around me.
i want to spend all the time with myself, i dont want to be there for everyone else. im a selfish bitch! ;)
its always better to share things with non-living things.
they dont judge me, they dont give comments and most importantly, they keep things to themselves. thats why i say what i feel here :)
i want to have an imaginary friend. hahaha.
gatria, be strong.
im not scared of pe anymore but still working on how to not fear of trainings.
math is becoming more and more and more and moooooorre boring nowadays.
ive lost interest in math. ive lost interest in almost everything. but not in cheese fries. (Y)
hehe.
ive gone mad over cheese fries, too mad that i put cheese fries as my displayed picture in msn.
haha.
and iskandar asked me why i always take pictures on my bed.
i'll let everyone know the answer. have i told you that im lifeless?
everything i do, i do on my bed.
im only out of my room to eat and bathe. really.
and my room is pathetically small and messy which always scares me out of the thought of mice or cockroach or lizards or any tinny winny bitty insect reproducing in my room.
so once i go in into my room, the first thing i will do is look at mirror then sit on my bed.
i study on my bed, do homework on my bed, sleep on my bed, eat potato chips on my bed, go online on my bed, cry on my bed, text on my bed, read on my bed, sing on my bed and now im on my bed.
hehehe.
and whats more pathetic, this bed isnt mine.
its my guardians! :D
but the most pathetic thing is that ive just discovered that i have to bribe myself with calbee, kinder bueno and another heavenly fattening stuff so that my brain will want to cooperate with me.
pathetic, righhhhhhtttt?
that answers why i always gain weight during exams period.
:(
i like the word "pathetic" :D
my prepaid is dying. i cant reply smses.
im gonna miss the exhilaration i always have whenever this particular persons name is displayed on my phone screen because im not gonna top up my card until the end of this week. or maybe longer. hehe.
oh ya, i want to blog about this little boy who always tries to get my heart by saying sweet things.
he is so honest, he told me he wasnt in front of his computer hence he cannot go and search for sweet evil sentences from web to melt me. hahahaha. good attempt, though.
and guess what, i had ljs cheese fries just now. crazy-on-potatoes meal!
gooooooooooooossh. (Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)
i want more!
my math book is now staring at me fiercely and i choose to ignore it. how good.
you know what my current fear is?
mind-readers :o
i always suspect that everyone around me is all mind-readers.
but thats good. i tend to not lie.
hahaha.
there was assembly today. the talk was about fire thingy thing AGAIN!
it has been talked before and i still remember what mr quek said vividly last talk that i decided to use my precious time in the hall reading passages in my english book.
ok fine, its only an excuse. i never really listen to whoever who does the talk. hehe!
and i read this passae about aneroxia. and ive come up with a conclusion.
here it is:
never in this world will i suffer from aneroxia. NEVER. hahaha.
i can never imagine myself not eating my fave food to get what they call perfect figure i will never have. haha.
i will never ever fast myself cheese fries, potato chips and chocolate. i will never EVER EVER EVEEERRRRRR do that.
and no matter how badly i want to lose weight, i will never never never ever ever ever go on a diet like what mischa boston (or whatever her name is) did!
gross.
ok, im off. irs raining. keep on raining until tmr night, please?
there will be no training.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. how wonderful my day will be.
bye!
I AM MAD!
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