passport oh passport

i still have no guts to ask my guardian if she found my passport lying on the floor.
i know she didnt cause if she did, she would have given it back to me by now.
im very very worried cause im going back next tuesday and if i cant find my passport by tmr, i will be dead as i wont have time to look for it over the weekend.
:(

please please pray for me that my guardian is keeping it with her now.
which is quite impossible.
ive learnt my lesson this time, i wont misplace my passport anymore after this.

and tell me what happened to my parents for goodness sake!
no one seems to care about how worried and clueless i am!
:(

im not in peace right now, not at all.
i will try my best to persuade my parents if i go back later so that they will allow me to move out cause i can no longer survive here.

omgggggg i can hardly breathe now and i feel like crying.
can i be in peace for at least, a week?

cant forget to breathe slow,
count from one to ten with my eyes closed.
cause ladies take it in and get compo-oh-oh-sure.

report book tmr, i think.
can i stop feeling anxious?
*sighs*

i feel like im gonna lose everything. again.
idk who to turn to.
to be specific, i dont have anyone to turn to.

i want to be alone.
i want beach and wind.

its been so long since the last time i cried so i really need to cry my heart out right now.