GOD.

i have 1001 reasons to smile.

:)

i have the worlds prettiest and sweetest people by my side who mean alot to me.

there would be no gatria without their existence in this brutal world.

through them, ive learned that life is tough.

but im tougher.

thank you mama, papa, epin, ayi and regina.

theres no word to describe how much i love you guys and how lucky i am to be part of this family.
:)

thank you fahmi, for your understanding plus your ultra patience plus love plus time plus everything you do to make me feel like i am, finally, important to someone.

"havent we promised not to leave each other?"

:)

thank you lala, noora, fatin, iqin, fifah, renie, wani and all the girls who make me stronger from every single hug, thought, smile, laughter we share.

idk how i would be without you guys.

although we dont spend so much time together like how we used to, you guys are still irreplaceable in my heart.

:)

thank you mifdhal, iskandar, hannah, qzai and arif who have been always there for me.

listen to all my endless complaints and keep me accompanied always.

:)

woah, im so... sweet!

right?

hahaha. idk why but im just happy.

because i have 1001 reasons to be happy despite the fact that i screwed every mye paper i sat for.

-.-

AND EXAMS ARE OVER.

HOHO.

k, fine i will shut up and do my homec presentation.

(edited)

ok this is random.
i went through my mail inbox and i found this.
HAHA. i was deleting the mails i received (total was around 1500+! o.O) and the '15' caught my eyes so i read it.
it was from my ex and he sent this mail on our 15th monthsary.
hahaha. i know youre reading this entry.
uhm.. its kinda 'magical' to reminisce that i had a boyfriend before, whom, i thought, was my everything, my life, my soul, my ass. hahaha. k, that ass part not serious lah okay! haha.
live is blind, believe me. hahaha.
i just feel different now. somehow!

its not easy for me to fall for a guy deeply madly crazily fantastically or whatever-ly now.
and trust me, i dont regret having those times when i had you, hae.
it was a great great lesson for me to learn.
recall the pain we went through together, the time we had to struggle to prove people they were wrong about us, the necklace and the ring and the letters and the chocolate and the jacket and the movie dates and the kisses and the hugs and the smiles and the laughters and the stupidities.
HAHA.
i remember the time, after the breakup, when i teared everytime i opened my mouth, not being able to utter even a word, the time when i stared blankly at the happy people from 99 bus and wished i could hold you tight and never let you go, i remember the time when i wasted almost hundreds dollars to buy prepaid just to hear your voice everynight and whined and asked myself why cant we have those things back, i remember the time when i first went back to indo after our breakup and you promised me that nothing would change destiny and you believed that i was the one when you were with her, i remember the time when we cried our feelings out together, asking God why life was so unfair toward us.
and oh, i also remembered the way you looked at me and whispered those three words that changed my life.
i remembered all the 21st date in every month.

and yes i realise ive changed alot.
i always wanted to change.
because ive buried my past a long long time ago and ive successfully rebuilt everything and here i am, standing very very strong.
thats one reason why ive changed alot.
and thats why im so much happier now.
ive found what true happines means by completing myself without having to have any bf.
because i know that God have a very very special plan for me, i still believe.
i mean, i was happy too but im feeling that kind of bliss... you know.
you will still be a part of my vulnerable heart.
im glad i had you and our little sweet story.
(eh nooo seventeen months is not little, k! haha!)

lets go out to a park and start nostalgia-ing someday with a plate of cheetos rice!
i assure you it would be the best day of our lives.
:D

no, i havent done my powerpoint slides.
went to jp because i thought of getting myself a cup of oreo mcflurry and meeting fahmi for awhile.
and ljs failed me.
crazy on potatoes meal!
oh yeah baby i still can feel it in my mouth.

its been so long since fahmi and i went out together.
so yah, he kinda missed me just now ^^
HAHA.
perasannye budak.

k, where was i?
oh, the worlds blah blah fattening blahhh...
only for today okaaayy!
celebrate the day, man!
exams are over.
actually for me, exams were over two days ago.
i was already in a holiday mood.

and i havent topped up my prepaid, my fingers itchy bitchy alr.
:(
tmr no school yay i love jvs for giving us so much break.

and nooooooooooooo i dont want obs camp!
four days!
i wonder how im going to shit during four-days camp!
omg omg omg.
and im scared of almost everything, remember?!
howww!
even flu babi (swine flu) is not powerful enough to cancel obs.
omggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.

i love sweet people.