life is great.

yesterday was the c boys west zone finals.
they beat hong kah, like what the b boys did.
3-0.
nadhir scored one.
:)

idk why im so expressionless now.
maybe its because im left with 20 cents now.
or maybe i want to eat ramly burger so badly.
or maybe because im too happy.
idk.

days left for me to be here are numbered.
im just doing my everything now till im there.
i dont want to think much about it.
i want to be stupid and innocent and plain and nerdy so that i wouldnt know if people lied to me.
so that i wouldnt know the reasons of everything.
i guess this is a part of growing up.

and noora, i precisely know how you feel.
dont worry, life is fair.
ive gone through all those things that youre going through now.
it takes time to get used to it.
be strong, honey.
you know you can.
:)

i had a hard time going to sleep last night.
i ended up sleeping for only two or three hours.
there is just too much to be thought about.
and again, one thing about me is i take things too hard.
so i will think and think and think and once i find the answer, it hurts me deeply.

FUCK, IDK WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME.
why am i so melo?
:(

i should be happy.
cant wait to go back to indonesia.
happiness is there.

what else?
i got back my science test paper.
:D

• mid-year exams are around the corner and i havent even started revising
• im an insomniac
• i cant stop blogging
• im waiting for your sms still, waiting for you to tell me
• im so confused i dont even know what im feeling

why is everything screwed up?