because, believe it or not, i have a conscience.

happy 6th monthsary, you irritating couple.
hahaha.
i was so excited to talk to epin on sunday that i couldnt stop talking for 30 mins. i tried so hard to make her jealous of my life here when its obvious that she leads a better life there. much much better. i can see and feel the contrast.
thats how much i miss my family :(
i need them the most right now.
home isnt about the place. its about the feeling.
i want to go home and never come back. really.

i dont want to talk so much. fine, i try not to talk so much now.
i passed my higher malay, geog and english papers so far.
im happy, i guess.
but not for english paper. whoever the marker is, thank you so much -.-

training was exhausting like shit.
my whole body is aching.
i want to go home. please :'(

so i think thats all i want to blog about.
cos either youre gonna think what you believe, theres nothing you could say that would hurt me.
bye people.

notes to self:
- keep your trust to yourself, you know people will forever betray you
- dont read science book during math lesson
- dont talk during lessons
- dont gossip
- dont walk when youre supposed to run, you better drop dead while running than being called a loser
- your mum is only 11 digits away, forget those who are 8 digits away but not worth your time and heart talking to
- dont write long compositions anymore
- kill the laziness!
- youre here for your mum, remember that
- dont regret the decisions youve made
- everything happens for a reason, and the reason isnt to piss you off
- stop crying and running away for goodness sake
- tell yourself youre contented enough with everything
- pray hard, really hard