in case you haven't noticed.

guess what. i dont give a damn what you say about my appearance. i know im not pretty and youre VERY pretty. so what. beauty isnt everything.
at least i know im being myself here and that makes me feel good :)

the reasons why im blogging now simply because i have no homework. secondly, i just want to talk.
i like to talk. haha.

i thank God im surrounded by wingless angels who are always there for me whenever im down. again. haha. because im just feeling down now. idk why.
and if you think im close to guys just because i like to flirt around or whatever, think twice sweetie.
i share my problems and secrets with my guy friends more because i can trust them better.
really really.
they keep secrets, they give best solutions, and most importantly, they MEAN what they say.
so yeah, if you think im gatal just because my best friends are guys, see whos talking k :)
and if youre jealous, just say. haha, joking.
i cant just heck care.

and i hate people asking me when they know im NOT okay.
if you ask me "are you okay, gats?" when you know you just did something that i dont like and make me mad.
(most of the times, i will tell you if i dont like how you treat me)
what do you expect me to say?
"of course im not okay" and me to start a fight?
no. i will smile widely instead.
i keep quiet when i get hurt, especially by friends. so dont ask.
i will always feel better after that. i cant be angry for too long.
get mad then get over it :)

this post will be more to "what i dont like" post.
haha. enjoy!

i dont need people who need me only when they have no one.
im not spare tire.
so when im alone you leave me just like that and when youre alone you want me to be with you.
but dont worry, i will accompany you wherever you go. i wont be mad, i will just keep quiet.
best kaaann, im used to it anw.

but i know my friends care about me. i hope they do uh.

and and i hate people who hurt my best friends. so does lala.
not hate. dont like. haha!
but if you dont want me to not like them, i can.
because your life is your problem.

what else uh? i have a lot to say but i just cant recall them. haha.
ok, i want people to treat me like how i do to them.
from today onwards, be myself.
you leave me, i can do the same. so dont be angry if i happen to leave you one day when you have no one.
because thats how you treated me.

lala is still the best despite her offensive honesty. hahaha.
offensive honesty? what did i say?! haha. ok, forget it.
best friends know when you have problems even when you dont tell them or pretend to be okay, they know you cry everynight to sleep, they bother to ask what the problems are as they want to be there for you to help, they keep the secrets to themselves, they never leave you in trouble, they stand up for you, they accept you flaws and all, they and they always make you feel much better.
i love you lalaaaaaaaaa. im sorry i was bad.
:(

i love all my friends.
even if they dont appreciate me as a friend who always wants the best for them, i still love them. i swear i do. hehe :)