so much for a sweetness.

no sweet valentine this year ;)
but i still want to thank those sweet souls out there who made my pocket filled with chocolates and candies.
and my dear fifah for giving me the red balloon. i repeat, RED balloon!
ily guys byk byk. hehe.

sorry if i couldnt get anything for you guys.
i dont even have time to buy myself a valentine gift. haha.
but its okay.
like what i said, everyday is valentines for me ;)
but tomorrow is a bit more special uh. haha.

and jeng jeeenngg.. i want to wish my sensen a happy birthdaaayy. 2nd year alr. hehe.
sensen is my blue doplhin doll. hahaha. lame, i know.
someone gave me sensen 2 years ago with a bouquet of white roses and a love letter.
i love sensen. idk why. absolutely not because of the one who gave it to me.
when i cry, the first thing i hug is sensen. when im angry the first thing i hug is sensen. when im sad and disappointed the first thing i hug is sensen.
he keeps me accompanied :DD

no one is gonna melt my heart anymore.
almost did lah.
i find its quite stupid of people when they ask me what i want for valentines day or my birthday or whatever.
of course lah i wont say that i want this i want that i want blaaahhh. haiyooo.

my laptop is being a pain in my assssssssssssssssssssssssss.
i seriously cant take it anymore, man! :@
idk if its the connection or its my laptop.

true what my friend says, im so sensitive nowadays.
i myself have no idea wtf is happening to me.
i guess im just scared of losing everyone.
i know im wrong to be like this but i just dont know what to do.
i try my best to stop being like this.
maybe i have to learn how to keep things to myself deep deep inside.
;)

you know whatttt. i can survive with two fish burgers a day. haha.
thoday i only ate two fish burgers.
after netball match on thursday i ate two cheese burgers cheese fries eventhough half of the cheese fries fell onto the floor :(
i was too happy to scold anyone. haha.
and i think i want to be a shooter. but i like defending.
so just be a defender lah gaaatt -.-

i need to do revisions.
i still love math and science, as usual.
(im motivating myself in case you havent noticed!)
and im stressed, like REALLY REALLY stressed.
my english is becoming worse and worse and soon it will be at its worst point.
i feel like crying whenever i flip through the pages of my dictionary.
the words are killing me slowly and slowly.
i need an english tuition but i dont want to waste money.
spend money on food can but on studies dont want. tsk tsk tsk.

i want to get rid of everything in my life and start all over again.
i wish i could be skinny. i wish i could be smart. i wish i could be better.
i wish there was no fish fillet, chicken burger, cheese fries, fried and fattening food on earth.
i wish everyone had the awareness of how important it is to study.
i wish.

i want to say something but i dont know how to verbalise it.
nvm, forget it but one thing.
i dont need you to talk the talk. i need you to walk the talk.
fatin taught me this. haha!

im done for now.
1 min later i will be back and edit or add something to this post.
i cant remember anything right now.
ok, byeeeeeeeeeee! *blows kisses*

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhh GATRIA HAS MADE A NEW FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT OUT OF BOREDOM.
so as per normal, add me up : gatzkalz@hotmail.com
youre so the nice. ily. hahahaha.