pop!

oh.
my.
god.
i cant believe common tests are over.
now, i dont wish to see my results. haha.

the only thing i could think about from just now is;
"common tests are over, i dont need to study anymore.
i dont need to start and end my days with books and i can blog, i have to blog!"
:D

i did a lot of silly mistakes.
the most heart-breaking one is the one i did for higher malay paper.
i know the word but i was confused to choose which spelling i should use.
my first answer was "khuatir". then it sounded so wrong that i changed it into "khawatir", it is spelled like that in indo.
i changed like, three times? then i decided my answer on "khawatir".
after test, i asked syahmi how to spell it in malay and he said its "khuatir".
i was like, "FCUKEEEERR!"
i pray hard so that the answer wont be "khuatir" because if it is, im gonna cry 3 days and 3 nights. haha.
ok fine, over-exaggerated -.-
but its a 2-mark question and i feel upset.
mdm lorena, have mercy on me.

as for geog paper, i spelled hydroponic as hydrophonic.
hydroponic reminds me of phoenix, thats why :(
and i answered one question in point forms which teacher has warned me thousands times not to do but i couldnt think at that point of time.
i read the question and i was so excited that all the answers jumped out of my brain immediately.
i was scared i wouldnt have enough time so i rushed :(
mdm norhani, have mercy on me.

i always DO the same mistakes all over again.
i often have no confidence in my answers that i change the correct answers into the wrong ones.
and whenever i get back my paper, all the cursing words come out.
:@
and i must do that in EVERY TEST.
i lost 9 marks because of that before and it still hurts me until now.

english paper was fine. composition writing.
i didnt have time to expand my story. i didnt even have time to check my paper, the time was just nice for me to complete the story.
haih, sadly.

today was like a disaster. science and math papers on the same day.
and the day before i slacked around in my room, slept and did nothing.
math paper first. when i went to my class, it was alr locked and i left my pencil case inside.
damn you esmond. -.-
iqin and i ran from class to hall to class again and back to hall again.
the lights were off i couldnt find my calculator so i decided to borrow from this sweet girl from 1n1.
thank you! ily whoever you are. haha.
and i forgot to refill my correction tape but lucky i had yunos.
if not my math paper would be a hell of shit.
i didnt manage to study much for science paper as i had to finish my macaroni cheese that i made during homec.
and again i did the same mistake, i canceled the correct answer and i begged mdm rohani for mercy. again.
she was irritated for sure because the last test i did the same thing.
i spelled shallower as swallower. see how clever i am.

OK ENOUGH.
ive been talking about school, school and school because thats the only thing i can talk about.
to be more specific, thats what my life is all about :)
pathetic, i knooooww.

but im so happy for my last math test result.
the marks i got made me fly far far away.
:D

STOP.

today was the worst and the best day.
worst because of common tests.
best because theyre over today and its fatins birthday yay yay yaaaayyy!

happy birthday my sayaaaanngg!
wish you all the best. youre fourteen and youre old.
hahaha. wish you all the best for your results k.
i love you banyak banyak banyaaaakk. hehe.
lets forget whats alr over; make things up.
:D

i cherished the birthday bash moment! so much. haha.

and sorry i cried on your day.

i was terribly sad. i felt the sense of loss just now.
losing someone i... like?
but whatever it is, things are straighten up now.
thanks to mifdhal for helping me so much on telling the truth.
such a helpful soul. haha.
im so relieved. i dont regret making that decision, i know thats the best :)
and just so you know, boy.
the way you treated me just now shows me that maybe youre not the one.
which makes me not regret saying a thing.

thanks to lala for lending me your shoulder.
dont wash your shirt, my tears there will bring you luck.
im lucky i have them.
i laughed a lot today despite all the problems i have.
i miss them so much eventhough i see them everyday :(

oh and im so damn mad at these seniors of mine.
what a backstabber.
so what if im close to people who are older than me by 2 years. or two batches above me?!
cant i make friends with older people?
and if you guys say my friends and i act like princesses just because we hug each other and tell that we love each other, you better keep your opinions to yourself i tell you.
because of that, i pity you for not having anyone to hug, anyone to love and anyone to share your deepest feeling.
pity you for not having anyone that can make you feel like a princess like what my friends can do to me.
PITY YOU, SENIORS.
you say i flirt with sec 4 guys, i tell you what.
i never ask them to entertain me, i never ask them to talk or come to me and i never ask them to treat me specially.
they come to me, they talk to me and i do the same thing to them.
i believe that if you want to be treated nicely, you have to treat people nicely too.
dont like because im closer to them than you are? pity you, again. -.-
and you told me bad things about your friends, you told me you didnt like this particular girl whos one of your closest friends and in front of them you talk about me. bad things about me.
baik uh!

im so fed up, man.
if you say im flirty, look whos talking k.
at least i never go and confess to every guy i like about the feeling.
i never ask for guys' numbers like what you do.
i never message guys first unless its necessary.
i never do anything itchy bitchy like what you do.
HAPPY?!
-.-

my source of happiness is never dry.
i love my life the way it is.
i love myself the way i am.
you have no right to judge.
and one thing, you dont even know me.
gth.

who says life is unfair?