ok, let me start this with "i finally cried last night" :O
omg, idk what happened but ive been waiting for my tears to come out before i sleep, not because of spicy food or what.
i feel sad, happy, curious, everything. but whenever i feel sad or stressed, like something in my heart or lungs or ribs or chest or whatever is going to explode but it never did.
then this morning i cried. only a drop. haha. but i cried k!
and let me show you what i got last night :p

HAHAHA. if youre gonna puke now, go ahead.
it was 2 years ago. wake up! haha.

oh yea, last night i went to my friends birthday party. it was cool, super cool.
sweet-seventeens are always cool. haha.
she wore a very nice dress, like a bride like that. then her bf came also, i expected something sweet from her bf, but nothing. haha.
but very touching leh :'(

then i ate a lot, i failed to do my mission. im sad, as you can see -> :'(

Leona Lewis is good oy.
she has been a vegetarian since she was twelve because she is against animals cruelity.
i want to be a vegetarian. argh, rubbish. haha.

then im going to gym next week. from monday to friday.
i cant stand it if i meet all my friends and the only thing they can say about is im becoming much fatter instead of saying hello or hi or wow you are back -.-
nvm, thats good actually. so that i can have the spirit to go on diet! haha.

then yesterday i went out with my sister and her bf.
i have a very cute candid pict of them but my sister is gonna kill me if she finds out i upload the photo (this is serious, dont try this at home!)
hahaha, lame -.-
so im not gonna do so :D

then today i have plan to go out with Amel and the chipmunks :p
but idk whether i can be punctual today. i never am. haha.
because my driver isnt coming. and my father has to drive me there but no way he can wake up so early.
even if he does, he will sit for idk how many centuries then get up and bathe.
imagine! :O

i think Ayie is amazing *claps*
she is the only one among all my sisters who doesnt care about appearance, at all.
ok lah, a bit. she cares about her curly fringe! haha.
then she said this to me the day before yesterday.
"pretty also for what, now must study first what. later if youre already 16 or 17 then you do whatever you want to do, go put on make up, go on diet, slim down. blah blah blah..."
i was like, "she doesnt care also still pretty" ):
im jealous. no, fatin says, you arent jealous, you envy them.
HAHA.

oh, i just know if Regina, my youngest sister, is obssessed by HSM even crazier than me.
haha.
her pencil box is HSM edition one, the one that has Gabriella & Troy on it.
her pencils, pens, books, phone, songs.
omg. i think im gonna be sick of HSM here.
no, i wont ):

what else uh?
i think Epin is very irritating.
but nvm, she is still my sis.
HAHA.
sorry ah sis :p

and i ate Ayie's satays but she didnt scold me.
i ate Regina's tin of potato chips but she didnt scold me.
Epin, i dont even dare to touch her things. but sometimes i khilaf and cant stand it so i just take lor.
haha. but yesterday was so funny. hahaha.
i ate Ayies Silver Queen (chocs bar).
the scene was like this:
i was bored waiting for Epin to finish bathing and my mother to finish hair-drying Reginas hair so i went to kitchen and looked for something to eat from refrigerator.
i saw half-eaten chocholate so i took and finished it. hahaha.
i tot it was Reginas because i saw her eating the chocs in the morning.
ayie who was sitting sweetly on the chair saw me then *gasp*
she ran to the kitchen then opened the refrigerator, screamed, cried.
HAHAHA. i was like, oh no.
then because she cried already, i, offhandedly, finished the chocs. HAHA.
she cried already what. then she sulked the whole night, luckily i went to the party leh. haha.
and she cried because she havent even touched the chocs after she put it inside the refrigerator which means Regina ate it first before me.
without asking for her permission. HAHA.

ok, what a long post.

summarise what things i NEED to do.
eat one meal per day. two meals, the most.
work out.
no more snacks.
no more being talkative. i mean, VERY talkative.
no more embroiling myself into peoples problems.
k, thats all.
i want to be skinny. amin.

AND WTF HAPPENED TO MY FRIENDSTER! I JUST LOGGED IN AND I FOUND MY 1564 FRIENDS BECOME ONLY 6?!??!?!?! NOT EVEN 6! ARGH! :@